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The wrong way of fall in love

I begin to realize, that ever since my friends johnny fell in love with Nina (secretary in client office) he became so much more stupid literally than how he had been previously. 

Yes, some people become a bit irrational when they were fallin in love with someone. i happened to that phase too some years ago. Somehow thank God I now am walking with someone I never fall in love with. ahahaha may be it sounds even more stupid.

But come on, isn’t it funny and a bit weird? no matter how bad this shit happens to some of boys and girls, men and women, this thing should stop when the relationship rise up into a marriage (i mean, something a bit more formal and require commitment to run). This couple somehow needs to make and follow a certain rule they respect. Men usually become the leader, and women become the follower, as well as the supporting back bone to each other. in that way, they would slowly but sure learn how to understand each other position in this family organization. More than just self ego. And why I expressed such an astonishment is because this shit sometime keeps going on even until the marriage..

I just can’t believe that Ronny become such an ass even now he is a dady. He is supposed to be the Leader of the family. But there is something in his love to his wife that always stop him from saying no to her. He never blame this woman whatever she does. I mean, he never even make a correction when he needs to. He is a visual communication designer. Kinda artist in his world (I don’t know design quite much). Yet, now all he thinks is just how make more and more money in such way that his wife is agree with. now fuck that. How do you call it as creativity?

I ever felt that shit too… the unreasonable stupidity. Well, I am not a smart guy, yet it made me even worse everytime I fall in love with a woman. I made her my queen, what a stupid shit to do? I don’t have any single queen in my life. I admire her, tell her how bad i need her everyday and so on. God damned, how this goddamned woman could be my wife? the answer is clear, she never be. Well, its impossible that you could live with someone you fall in love so badly that you could never blame her or him, even when you have to. I would never live with someone I couldn’t admonish when she makes mistakes. I need to make my family a good organization. Just like everyone else. I just fell down on a whole messed up shit pile of “the wrong way of fall in love”.

As I said above I now am walking with a woman I like yet I never really fall in love with. We go to movies, concert, discuss alotta things, share to each other. In front of her, I could be myself, a normal guy, not a stupid one. Our relationship doesn’t answer my needs to make a family, yet it is much better than if I had to go with a queen.

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No Sir, you can’t ask about this cage.

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What is so wrong of being stupid for your own life?
What is so wrong of being different?
What is so wrong of being dying while trying to chase dream?
what is so wrong of being too much sensitive of what people think of you?

So I ever heard once a news on TV about how a boy wanted to turn himself into a female because how felt so far that he had been caged in a wrong body.
In the same way, I found some people felt that they never found any best hood that totally support their ideas. what they did next wasn’t to move to another hood and expecting to find the right friends who could easily accept them, but they changed their prespective of what the hood said about them.
There is a huge fear of death and failure.

so huge that people can even see my doubtfulness. A fear of dying on the way before I could finish this race against common sense.

No one even think that this shit is a good idea to die… ahahahha… Thanks.
Is there any real freedom out there? I doubt that.

since we are all caged in what people say about us….

 what is the pride of being this bullshit.

Being Dreaming

just had a blog walking, I felt kinda glad but jealous as well to know one of em. Someone who wrote proudly about her dreams and finally “just” could achieve almost most of those dreams. even though these dreams are just simple ones.

People usually say that I am a shy person, I am not even confident enough to answer when they ask about my dream.

Am I really this kind of guy??

Or, this girl who wrote her dreams on her blog had just written the blog after she could finally chase her dreams? ehehehe…

Ouh dude.. please.. I just remember that I never even wrote my dream anywhere in public pages. But, hey.. I guess today I am answering their questions.

I have to say this, honestly I never tell people what i do really wanted, until finally after graduating from my bachelor degree and being failed to get Europe scholarship I told my cousin about this dream, which has just failed.. ouh dear..

But of course this dream is completely different, I mean i don’t even list mine. i just have a big chunk inside my chest that i should spit it out as fighting rhyme one day. Ahaha… whaever..

So I come to a funny story about telling dream to someone else. I red about Planetary Resources from Larry Page state in Google + and then begun searching all about this wonderful idea. Nah.. I went to the career page on the website, and just took a look at the questionnaire, Wow!!! This is it!

I never saw an application pages like it. It is nothing about your education degree, but your dream.

Are you Space nut?